I feel like I’ve hung up the phone and breathed a sigh of relief after hours of conversation: I’m done with my internship and ready to start the process of job hunting in my chosen field. But to my slight disappointment, I wasn’t offered any type of job at the radio station. True, everyone praised my work and seemed to think well of me. The only conclusion I could get from the last-day conversations I had was that a) either the station didn’t have the budget for another person in the production department or b) I live an hour from the job.
Should distance be an issue? I think it’s my issue, not theirs, because for years I have been saying I want to move to that town. I just haven’t done it yet.
I talked with a friend last night about work-balance issues, and we both agreed on two things about our personal and professional dreams:
1) You have to want your dream enough that you will do anything to get it. (I like to add the disclaimer, anything within reason for the right dream. Because hey, if your dream is to rob a bank and live happily ever after, well, are you D.B. Cooper?)
2) You may want to have financial security in your future, and yet want to have a fulfilling job as well. Though it often seems like you can’t have both (unless you are in the right place at the right time) you CAN. But you have to decide which one you want the most. Then you go for either the fulfilling job, or the financial security, and pour less energy into the second part of the dream.
I think the culprit here that is the major dreamkiller is only within me: the unwillingness to change or to move an hour away, because I’m worried about giving up my present job. It’s not the typical person standing at my shoulder saying “you’ll never make it,” it’s more my own thoughts that are holding me back.
I’ll be working on shooting down these dreamkillers and seeing what I can do for my future in broadcasting. This post is just to remind me that the path to the dream isn’t easy, but sometimes it’s the only way–traveling through changes.